Jiexin

2012-01-29T23:02:00.001+08:00

Time flies lor like seriously!

Aunt's house on sat. Watched 4 discs of dragon zakura there again. Uncle tiam bought us mango cake!
Today went sa mm's house and saw jess otw home. Then rushed to hz's and had dinner with the peeps. Hz's area, the place where so much memories were created.

Tmr got sch again WTH. This was from last fri:

2012-01-27T23:00:00.001+08:00

All those years.

I devoted my love, my life to basketball. It has given me most of the greatest things in my life: happiness, the originals, the impartiality, the 2 best coaches, a great teacher ic ang jiejie, awesome team mates, great friends and unforgettable memories.

Today during pe, my ankle pain acted up again. And i asked myself, if it was all worth it. Of course, basketball's brought to me great things, but it has also given me disappointments, doubts, regrets, fear, etc and of them all, injuries. A lifetime of injuries and pain.

Even so, it's still worth it. All the joy, all the happiness, all the memories.

2012-01-26T22:17:00.001+08:00

“Because no matter how badly a thing is hurting us,
sometimes letting it go hurts even worse.”

2012-01-25T17:47:00.003+08:00

3rd auntie (dad's side) & cousins came over ytd.
Then shortly after they homed, dad mum bro & i went 春到河畔 to walk walk! So prettaye. ^^

2012-01-24T02:38:00.001+08:00

Happy cny everyone! :-) 3 years since my fam celebrated cny lol.

Early in the morn went to shop for electronics with dad mum sis. There was this conver on our way home.

-in the bus-
Dad: (asking a lady) Hi do you want the seat?
Lady: No it's ok i'm alighting in 2 stops.
Dad: Ok i'm alighting in 3 stops so i sit.

HAHAHA! Dad joker sia. Yup so today only went grandpa's house in the evening. And next sat planning to go aunt's house then that's all for my fam's cny activites hahah. Oh and i feel bad cus i napped for like 2h at grandpa's today, then shortly after i woke we headed home already lol.

Saw grandpa and uncle for 3 days straight whoop! :-)

2012-01-22T17:38:00.001+08:00

So sad. My uncle scared dogs so they decided to chain xb up. :(

2012-01-22T13:24:00.001+08:00

Reunion dinner @ grandpa's ytd.

Caught up with cuzzies and crapped with sis and bro haha! Sherwei's nose can do amazing things sia. I like to call him 32! (inside joke) My cuzzies and fam all jokers sia cannot take it lol. And my uncle said me sis and bro like same face sia really meh?!

Today having reunion dinner @ home! Too bad dad's only joining us for awhile... But on a brighter note, ahgong and uncles are coming over to eat with us! From the other end of sg aww.

Reached home ytd at around 1am and mum woke us up today early in the morn! She kinda flared up but when she went out and came back again everything ok liao thank god. :-)

2012-01-21T03:54:00.001+08:00

3:53am~

都明知相遇而从不相约
相约而从不相遇

2012-01-21T00:03:00.001+08:00

Cny celebration today @ mj. Pretty entertaining. During break we spammed pix and after that were lectures, where i caught no balls during econs, and entertained by thong in chem! He's damn funny and at the end he even used the weird accent to send us off haha!

And sis chopped off her hair lol. I also wanna be burden free!!

2012-01-20T23:53:00.001+08:00

Today i was reminded of the 2 songs someone sent me. It was the first time i've heard them and it was also the first time i cried, just by listening to music. At that point of time, i'd experienced the darkest moments of my life. And everyday, it's like as if i'm struggling to live. But the songs managed to save me. ‘Try’, and ‘I'll stand by you’.

So to me, nothing can probably make me feel worse than that. I'm glad i survived and i believe everyday is a gift! Tmr will be good again. :-)

2012-01-20T01:11:00.001+08:00

Ranting post!

You know................. Today then i realized, like really realized how much i dread playing table tennis. It's like i'm just an amateur and i'm pairing up with jess for doubles this year? And coach told me i can't escape so don't even try, cus i'll be playing in the tournaments.

If i'm playing on a recreational basis, i still don't mind. But my doubles partner is actually an experienced player, at least 3~4 years of experience. And after today's match, i found out something. When someone says “Good ball!” to me, i don't even know how i did it. It's like i'm just trying my luck. And it's due to luck that i've managed to hit nice strokes.

Plus it's not like we're not gonna have any dsa players coming in mjc! I mean of course they would've the ability to replace me for the doubles.

Wah fuck i so naggy. But even so, i love my pingpong team! Not including fei jiao lian.......... He really fucking irritating!

2012-01-19T00:40:00.001+08:00

Had a small bottle of red wine before heading to bed.
Hope to sleep well tonight.

2012-01-16T00:07:00.002+08:00

Fuck can't believe i was so busy. First weekend after school started and i didn't touch any work at all. Omg me totally fail.

But anw mum bought me P's code blue & buzzer beat! Omg (L) max. First time i'm gonna watch code blue so coolz.

2012-01-14T22:42:00.001+08:00

This week zoomed past.

So we seriouzly joined atlas mass dance, just that waielf pangsehed us! And eugene & samuel couldn't change fast enough to make it. But it was quite a good experience, plus we learnt in such a short while! So smart. :-)

Had friendly ytd. We all thought it was with cjc but when we finally reached, mp called her friend and we realized it's aj not cj! Lol max mp really sotong. So we dragged ourselves to aj and ended everything at 7:30 when we left sch at like, 3? FUCKING TIRED! Bathed and went straight to sleep. Anw our new pingpong teacher's damn friendly and she chatted/joked alot with us! So nice. Bused home tgt too. Then we realized she had 8 years of pingpong experience. Omg super kan bu chu.

Weekend's gonna pass by in a flash man! It's already sat night. Btw ytd i unknowingly sat beside XXX's bro on the bus to friendly and only realized it when he alighted. Fucking weird feeling!!

TMR SUN > MON > HELL DAYS > WEEKEND > CNY! Haha and i trimmed my fringe today with a razor.

Thankz aiueo for the vid!

2012-01-10T21:54:00.001+08:00

Today's only my 2nd day as a j2 and it's already been crazy. Plus the new econs tutor's a bitch although she teaches well. And i guess life's unpredictable cus we are joining the house mass dance tmr for open house! The xiangcaoahs. It's sorta a last min decision. Can't believe it sia all thanks to... Whoever.

For those who scored badly for O's, don't be too dejected. If you did your best then be contented, if you regretted then win everything back by scoring well in A's or for your GPA!

Hahaha i think tmr really nightmare. Me dancing?! Even png can't believe it.

2012-01-09T06:59:00.001+08:00

School reopens!!!

On the bus now and thinking that, from today on if i ever wake up late, dad can't save me anymore. Cus he killed his motorbike!!! NOOOOOOOO reality so harsh on me.

2012-01-08T22:47:00.001+08:00

FUCK YEAH tmr no training.
No need see fei jiao lian!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^^

2012-01-08T15:20:00.001+08:00

Omgz sis just suggested going bangkok for P's concert! And we're going!! Provided we get the tix hahaha. But this is crazy yo crazyzzz.

2012-01-07T23:20:00.001+08:00

In mrt on the way home. The amt of homework undone makes me wanna sleep+die NOW! 5 GP compre already enough to killlll, but i have more work than that. Btw sis hasn't been feeling well today man take care my idiot sis. ^^

This pix xb looks like he's smiling leh so cute! Be happy don't worry~

2012-01-06T23:23:00.001+08:00

Whoop xb's cny clothing arrived! ^^
Cute leh like me.

2012-01-06T14:57:00.001+08:00

Belated

2012-01-05T16:25:00.001+08:00

老天真爱耍人 #baddream

2012-01-05T02:11:00.001+08:00

It's 2:08, can't believe i've been out the whole day. Just did 2Qs of math and now i'm turning in. At this rate...... How am i gonna finish my hw? After ‘we bought a zoo’ with the caoxiangahaiueo ytd, i realized we have A LOT of hw and it's like mission impossible to complete them lol

Lol lol lol whatever we'll see how! Nightzz peepo

2012-01-02T22:36:00.001+08:00

Today's the 2nd day of a new year and we received a piece of very bad news. Goldie's dead :"( She'd been dead for 3 weeks.

She was stepped/kicked by someone so her bladder burst, which caused internal bleeding. No wonder we haven't seen her for SO LONG. The auntie who feeds cats at the void decks everyday told us about it and even showed us pix of goldie's at the vet. Her face was covered in blood. When she was finally seen she was already in blood. @ the 2nd storey of our block.

The auntie also said recently cats at our area began to go missing and some even died. Somebody witnessed a man — a chinese man who was believed to be a psycho, beat the cats with a wooden stick but did not stop him. So it's believed that all the missing cats were beaten by him and thus they went into hiding cus of their injuries. I believe goldie was badly injured too so she hid for 3 days until she was finally found on day 4. But it was too late. After all the medicine and stuff she still passed on.

Rest in peace goldie, you've been a well-behaved and a really cute cat. Cus you look like garfield. When you were sick we brought food to you but didn't know you would die so painfully.

Anyway, my fam also hope nothing bad will happen to blackie and mango. And hope the psycho will be caught since the auntie made police report already. Goldie so cute you also bear to step on/kick/beat her. You deserve to die!!

2012-01-02T04:04:00.001+08:00

Two of P's translated nikki (31/12/11)

“Today is the last day of this year (^^)

This year, to japan, is a year filled with many hardships. To me too, i've encountered many events which i've never experienced.

From now onwards, in my own ways, i'll try my very best to work hard and leave no regrets. I'll also live each and everyday to the fullest in order to progress. Also, in order to bring joy to those who've been faithfully supporting me, i'll do my best to be involved in as many activites as possible.

Hope that the new year will be a good year for everyone.

-

When 2012 arrives, i'll be singing at the countdown tv programme.
Really looking forward to it cus it has been a long time since i last sang. ♪”

P's always so positive. It's been a hard year for him too cus johnny asked him to leave NEWS and go solo. Which resulted in the unhappiness of some fans. NEWS fans and even P's fans. Yup and many other matters. >:(

Must be very torturing cus he's been in NEWS since like...... forever. But P's P, he'll always put on a smile no matter what! :-)

And...... this. Hope there'd be no more natural disasters in 2012.

“@cnnbrk: A magnitude 7.0 #earthquake hits #Japan, 302 miles south-southwest of #Tokyo, according to US Geological Survey. No #tsunami warning issued”

Been sleeping at 4~5am these few days. Nightz/morning peepo haha!

2012-01-01T21:57:00.001+08:00

Happy pix to start off 2012. 8-)

2012-01-01T01:15:00.001+08:00

Happy new year peepo. It's 2012! :-)

In 2011 i guess i've changed alot. To think i actually managed to pick myself up from the crazy mess that i was in, all on my fucking own. And i had to pretend like nth's happened. I had to come to terms with the fact that some things just can never be salvaged anymore. I had to deal with the deep pile of shit emotions that i'd left behind before my o levels. I had to trust myself to overcome that fucking voice in my head. Many many more.

But luckily and unluckily, 2011's been a crazily busy year. And i was lucky to have met nice people in jc. I'm happy my friends and i were all promoted to j2. I guess i'm now free from those shit emotions. And it helped that there're no more episodes in the fam.

Hi 2012 i'm ready for new challenges. Discard all shit feelings let'z go. LASTLY, happy new year my friends!!!!! ;)

2012-01-01T00:02:00.001+08:00

P's translated nikki entry. :-)

“Ytd i went to china, shanghai, to take part in their year-end countdown musical programme. This is my first time being involved in such an activity, thus i feel exposed to many new experiences.

Even at the airport, many fans turned up to welcome me and i'm really grateful towards them!

In the evening i had shanghai cuisine. It was really delicious! Laugh. What a surprise!

There are still so many more tasty dishes from various parts of the world which i've not yet tasted. I'm in good mood! Laugh. I'm interested in learning more about the culture of china. And her language as well of course! (^^)

Tmr i'm going to osaka to watch the match of the world boxing champion ioka-san. Really looking forward to it.

After that i'll also be involved in CDTV live show. Everyone plz watch the show.

See you around!”

He is soooooo busy! He gets very skinny everytime after a major production.

2011-12-31T21:43:00.001+08:00

From youtube:

“A 12-year-old Mongolian boy- Uudam (乌达木 Wudamu in Chinese) who lost his parents at the age of 8 in a road accident singing the song-"Mother in the Dream" (梦中的额吉) to his mother in heaven. He seldom talk about his story but when he miss his mother, he will sing this song. Besides, he always dream about his mother, sitting beside him.

The song is in Mongolian, therefore, not everyone can understand the lyrics. However, his singing touched every judges and audiences in the hall without the understanding of the lyrics. He sang out all his love and though to his mother.

A touching song, performed by a boy who got a sad story behind, a voice comes from far Mongolia sending his though to his mother at heaven. A great performance by a 12-year-old boy! He got an interesting and beautiful dream which is to invent a kind of ink that just need a drop to drop on the ground, the whole world will cover with green grass. one more thing to add, his mother wished to see his singing on the stage when she was alive.

the translation of lyrics as below:

In the stillness among the vast lands
I dream of Mother praying for me
She looks afar and gives precious milk to the heavens
As offering for my well-being
My Mother, so far away.
Stars twinkle above the grasslands while
In my dream I see Mother's caring face
As she prays to the heavens to wish me godspeed My Mother, so far away.

In my dream I see Home basking in golden sunbeam
While Mother softly sings an enchanting melody
There in the grasslands lies my everlasting home
My dearest Mother, wait for my return.
My dearest Mother, wait for my return.”

:")

2011-12-31T01:23:00.001+08:00

When some people care, they really fucking care. But when they decided not to care, they just leave you to die. Even when you're really helpless.

And people wonder why, it's so hard for some people to open up to others. I'd say, it's cus betrayal exists. Heartlessness too.

2011-12-29T18:23:00.001+08:00

2011-12-29T05:14:00.001+08:00

転んで気付くそんな时もあるさ,
皆さんを頑張るよ!

Just felt like typing in jap, haha! Recently sleep at this timing yo this is not good. 5:09am now haha good morning everyone お早うございます~

2011-12-27T14:44:00.001+08:00

P's 最後の情歌～一番!

2011-12-26T15:27:00.001+08:00

Happy boxing day everyone! :-)

Xmas morning spent with relatives > shopping > home > met wj hz ct ky at night > home.

Slept till just now. Sis's back for the day haha.

Anyway that day sat thru kopitalk by our mp mr baey. I think it's damn cool. And they were pretty helpful. Like really really! #ridingwiththelightning

And why yamapi's asia tour dvd so ex?! Why why why Y Y

2011-12-25T02:19:00.001+08:00

My xmas eve this year was spent with a different group of friends. My xiangcaoahaiueo fam haha. Dinner @ bedok 85 then slacked at jess's house. Thanks for the presents peepo! :-)

Thinking back. Probably 2010's xmas wouldn't have been that bad. If my friends were like them. And if she, a mum-like figure, hadn't give up on me.

But this year was pretty good. Merry xmas my friends! ;) Tmr's gonna be a busy busy BUSY day!

2011-12-23T14:11:00.001+08:00

Yesterday is history
Tomorrow is a mystery
But today is a gift — that is why it's called the present

:-)

2011-12-22T23:55:00.001+08:00

From afternoon to night, i feel X__X

Everyday is lazy day
Everyday is sleepy day
Everyday is happening

When can i take time out for hw?
X________________X

2011-12-21T23:57:00.001+08:00

“If only my parents can come and support my games............”

That's what a friend mentioned. Make me miss bball so much. Miss the originals. Miss the finals which we worked so hard for. Miss seeing my fam cheer for me. That's all in the past. My fam always supported my games. :-)

Anyway. Had 3 full glasses of red wine just now with dad and bro. My face very easy red yo 酒量不好. Caught ghost protocol again with sis and bro today! Like like maxxx.

Gonna update about the outing with png rh peh soon. When i feel like it haha.

2011-12-17T22:43:00.001+08:00

Met png rh peh today and went ecp! :-) Peh baked lemon cake for us, nice leh! She maybe baking some other cake for us tmr hahaha.

Anw it was madness. Everything @ ecp. Cycle whoop. Rh and peh rollerblade when they didn't know how to?! I wanted too leh but give up. Haha and png wanted to bring us to this ‘bridge’ place. But png and i cycled there first. IN THE RAIN! Sadly, rh and peh didn't make it there HAHA. We were damn 狼狈 and became 落汤鸡 hahaha.

Cabbed to tm after that cus of the stupid rain! No fun. Dinner at thai express and caught ghost protocol, i like. ^^ So long since i met them sia and we're meeting again tmr for WWW haha. And on mon for gym!!

Remember the last time i went ecp, it was.................. Anyway i really like it there!! The sea and sand. And bro bought xperia play today!! Whoo0o00p

2011-12-15T22:37:00.001+08:00

And so our homework session @ jess's became >>>

2011-12-14T23:01:00.001+08:00

干嘛说我朋友不好
他们又不是坏人!!! 至少对我来说
_|_

2011-12-14T22:47:00.001+08:00

Sighzzz mum nagging again. SUPER 扫兴 YO -_____-

Was still so happy over my plans!!! -_-

2011-12-14T22:07:00.001+08:00

Okz................................
This weekend i'm meeting png rh peh and cam haha f i n a l l y. Going WWW again! And i also have a WWW date with ky and jess on (undecided) day. Go how many times le sia.

And rollerblading on sat with the girlz. Haha finally gonna learn it after like 1000 years!

2011-12-13T20:51:00.001+08:00

Sometimes i really find talking to & meeting people a chore. So now i feel like 'hibernating' again! For 1 month again wheee. But i've got lotsa plans!!! NOOOOOOO

2011-12-12T10:51:00.001+08:00

Reached sch too early for pingpong. Lol we'll be having water fight today whoop! And it'z the last training, which means for the rest of 2011 i won't have to see fei jiao lian!!!! Bastard sia him.

Been heading out everyday sia so tired. My original plan was to stay home for dec and complete all my hw? Haha. Anyway went sembawang shopping centre that day and they having this doraemon event leh aww.

Just to add. Tiger crystal the taste like change alot sia. Now not nice le don't drink k.

2011-12-10T13:36:00.001+08:00

Stupid xb woke me up so earlyyyyy. Can't get back to sleep already

Anw life's been pretty boring! Ytd was tiger crystal day with peeps. And prank day with jess? LOL #blackwhitefail

And i'm BROKE. LIKE SERIOUZLYzz. Wanna work but salvation army's yet to confirm my schedule with ME!!! How i take time out for temp job?!

HOW?!!!?!?!!!!

2011-12-09T21:06:00.001+08:00

2011-12-08T22:32:00.001+08:00

Cus when you're 17......

2011-12-08T18:20:00.001+08:00

2011-12-07T15:18:00.001+08:00

Happy 18th xiangting!! ;)

2011-12-04T12:46:00.001+08:00

Fam chalet from ytd till today.

Super tired. Thankz all for coming! Xie xie xiangchao ahs + aiueo for the mahjong cards and ice cream, and hz for the donuts. Aiueo was under the rain with me bbq-ing with my cousins and i think 她要被冷死了 HAHA lame jokes. Waielf 拼命的吃 yo 感动 max. Nua with wj til 6+ in the morn. Haha

2011-12-01T21:38:00.001+08:00

HAHA well so i'm still in shock. Guess today's my lucky day? ;)

Today received this mail saying i've won some giveaway. Totally forgotten bout it. It's like i just send for fun or on impulse or smth. During PW OP dry run somemore if i'm not wrong!

“To win, tell us which superpower you'd like to possess and why”

“If possible, mind reading. The world's pretty scary now, you never know when people are lying to you for their own benefits or anything. We rarely know the real truth from others' mouths.”

Think i was feeling pretty down that day. Haha but that down-ness won me something!

Tmr will be another good day spent with my girlz! :-)

2011-12-01T02:01:00.001+08:00

I just fucking realized. That i'd lost all the songs you sent me. Try, real good moments, i'll stand by you, we'll be a dream, every song in my ‘happiness’ playlist. All gone

All gone with the trust you've had.

2011-11-30T01:30:00.001+08:00

Why P no have twitter? >:(
Yet another VERY TIRING DAY yo. Sleep well peepz nightzz

2011-11-28T14:33:00.001+08:00

Slacked at the airport ytd, breeks + mono deal + starbucks + declare + bridge + toms talk. Caught the last bus yo. And i finally saw natasya after like 1000 years! ;)

@ wj ky ct hz

Training later yo sian dao BOOMZ

2011-11-26T14:13:00.001+08:00

2011-11-25T15:07:00.001+08:00

2011-11-24T22:38:00.001+08:00

Recently keep posting sia haha.

Today feels like a sports day leh! Or sports fair/carnival/whatever. Tired die me but i like! I become more black liao and it feels so good to perspire! My rashes/spots also pop out liao!

Basketball using netball with xiangah!
Pingpong training. Stupid coach $&@#%^*
Jogged with mum & bro. My mum fit siol ji li hai yi xia. I only ran 2.4. But my running speed like walking!

Tmr last day of school MUAHAHA YAY

Anw to me, now basketball is just like another sport. Like basketball = pingpong that kinda feeling. Just that it's a sport with more memories!!! Should i feel happy or sad?

2011-11-23T02:31:00.002+08:00

最近很多事让我感动
是感人的事太多, 还是近年太少让人感动的事？

2011-11-22T17:54:00.001+08:00

Caught 23:59 after sch. LOL sitting with jw is entertaining leh!
@ xiangchao ah & aiueo

Bh bought toms for me leh gan dong maxxx. For sch use somemore! Still thought he ordered wrong size, xie xie bro 我会好好对你的!

2011-11-21T00:38:00.001+08:00

有些事过了却会永远留下

2011-11-19T01:26:00.001+08:00

RIP DEAREST LUCKY. <3
Although i've never seen you before, i've heard so many of your cute stories. Wished i had the chance to see you in real life.

Fucking sad now!!!!!!!!!!!!! Life is so short and unpredictable! :'( And i can't imagine xiaobai dying!!!

:'(
:'(
:'(

2011-11-17T01:18:00.001+08:00

Summing up what i'd done these few days

Flea + $2 $2 all for $2 shouting with xiangah and 401

Jw house for non-bake oreo cheesecake + mono deal + poker cards + badminton & netball

Bugis shopping for waielf's non-ahlian feminine bag

You are the apple of my eye with xiangchao ahs 401 nikki keith weilong eug + mahjong @ jess's house! Yay finally know how to play xiexie waielf

So many days passed just like that. Can't really even remember what i'd done over the past one week haha. I guess that's good, keep us from thinking about pointless stuffs

Anyway today arranged our GPF folder ohyeah!!! PW IS FINALLY FUCKING OVER. AS IN, REALLY OVER WHOOOP. Glad serene liked the iphone case jess & i gave her, suits her alot! Thankz all mj125 for the past few months. ;)

Tmr lectures start liao wtfz and i can't sleep leh >:(

2011-11-11T01:36:00.001+08:00

Ytd's op was pretty okay for everyone! YAYz. And eug came even though he was having fever! (Y) After everything ended, the xiang ahs + me went 401's house lol. We cooked our lunch haha fucking funny.

Spent my whole day today with 11S401. :-)
Pool > sakae > MBS > home
超累的. The xiangahs 401 and me all can't play pool so it was damn funny when we played. And we took damn long to complete one game haha! BUT i know how to play now thanks to weilong! He suddenly so nice. Buffet was funny too. Samuel forever alone! HAHA and serene's parents were so nice to book the hotel rooms for us, too bad we didn't stay over. Too bad sia waielf only joined us for buffet.

Whoop today laugh die me. Short update peepo i damn tired. Nightzzz

2011-11-08T18:25:00.001+08:00

Waiting for dinner to serve haha

Tmr's the OP exam, after that we'd all be freeeee. Anw eug's down with fever so hope he'll be okay by tmr morning.

We're MJ125 must jiayou cus we WANT TO FIGHT! So i cannot give up answering for Q&A tmr! We can do it jess serene lq eug! :-)

2011-11-07T19:36:00.001+08:00

Whoop trying out the new blogger app.
Anyway, sis & i brought xb out for a walk just now! ;)

Tmr got OP again sianz. Then wed it's the final exam.

2011-10-30T22:24:00.001+08:00

Today, had 3 inches of my hair cut off. All for guilt. And you know how slowly my hair grows?!

Anyway, the 3 inches is for you. Thanks for all your love, and concern all these while. I really feel it and i'm very grateful. Thanks for giving me so much. For giving me hope in life. And, i'm sorry.

2011-10-27T23:48:00.002+08:00

Miss you girlz. Miss how bballing was a habit back then in tnps.
Miss jiaolian, miss ms ang jiejie, miss the irritating guys team.

2011-10-26T12:15:00.002+08:00

Today will be a good day.
Forget everything and start anew let'z go! 頑張ってね!!!

Slept from 6pm ytd till noon, feeling much better.

;)

2011-10-25T17:48:00.003+08:00

Today's been pretty rough.

Cole:
I guess now, all i could say is sorry. Today, i'd thought alot. I'm sorry i gave you false hopes. But after hearing your voice over the phone, i guess i was even more sure of my feelings. You've put in alot, i know. But i really can't do this. I'll never forget your help. Let's just move on from here? Give ourselves some time.

Also, eug read my blog by chance. I'm betting that he won't be back to read this and i'm quite sure i'll be right. Just hope he's blur enough to not understand what i've posted.

2011-10-23T11:51:00.001+08:00

Did PW till 6am today morning. Now waiting for my food to come. A hungry man is an angry man.

I totally feel like X_____X now.

Anyway, dedicated my whole saturday to PW. Even went back to school ytd for dry run and I SWEAR IT WAS FUCKING AWKWARD.

2011-10-20T22:24:00.000+08:00

Finally met up with wj ct and hz. I swear i must learn to play bridge before i meet them again!

School's been pw pw & pw. I really don't fucking know what i'd done! I mean, why did you have to doubt me? Me, of all people? Like i'll backstab you in front of him. _|_ Why can't you two work well together? So when you can't fucking get along, it's my fault?

But i always give in. Sometimes i really think i'm a people pleaser.

2011-10-17T21:51:00.005+08:00

I really didn't think you'd backstab me like that. And i thought everything was great. Until i saw the text by chance. I guess it was all predestined. I had to use your phone and i had to see it.

Why i always kena this kinda thing?! Fuck and we've ~one month to go before pw ends _|_

2011-10-11T07:08:00.001+08:00

I've parents who ensure i've my meals taken before heading out.
I've a dad who doesn't mind waking early if he's able to send me to school.
I've a mum who doesn't mind walking me to the bus stop every morning.

I guess this is good enough. Maybe i'm blessed. Maybe i shouldn't mind their demerits and should focus on their merits instead. I've good parents. :)

2011-10-09T22:35:00.000+08:00

Mjc @ zouk. And Real steel after that was great. Samuel's thigh cramp after the movie was damn epic. Seriouzly haha.

Starting tmr we'll be getting our results back. I didn't even know until shuling told me ytd. Fuck sia i really dread it!!! Thought we'd be getting them back like, 1 month later?! FUCK LA URGH

2011-09-29T12:43:00.000+08:00

“Don't act like you're the saddest person cause i'm scolding you.”

I won't forget this.

2011-09-29T12:14:00.003+08:00

Stuck between ① Trying and failing, and ② Giving up without a try — for econs.

Today's chem was totally.......... FUCK. I'm already one foot into 12S401. I don't want to try and fail and try and fail all over again. Hate that fucking feeling.

And now i'm like standing in the middle of nowhere, not knowing which path to take, which path to choose. Not knowing whether to try or to give up trying.

FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2011-09-27T23:23:00.002+08:00

Promos' killing me. My brain. Sleep deprived max.
If i still end up retaining, REALLY................. Just kill me.

2011-09-26T23:37:00.001+08:00

FUCK. Today's day 1 of promos and i totally screwed it up. Fuck max. More doomsdays on the way, esp econs day it'z gonna killllllllllllllllllll. _|_

12S401? Withdrawal form?
_|_ _|_ _|_

2011-09-22T07:03:00.001+08:00

It's been the 3rd day, and it just struck me that the vomiting thing is possibly back to haunt me. I don't know, have to continue observing and pray i'm wrong.

Absent from sch ytd. Everyone's getting sick, take care people.

2011-09-16T07:15:00.000+08:00

We've become strangers, people who won't even greet each other on the bus. We were once like a family.

My friend, hope we'll both do well for our promos.

2011-09-14T16:07:00.001+08:00

Currently in classroom, blogging while the others are still doing the math paper. I finished 1.5h before the paper ends, which is like half of the total duration. Fucking shit i can't do everything. Like really really.

12 days to promos, really think i'm gonna DIE. Bye peepz, i think i'll be in poly next year.

:-(
:")
(N)

2011-09-09T23:56:00.000+08:00

Most people don't know that 09/09 is coaches' day.
Happy coaches day my dearest tnps & nas coaches.

I'll never forget how i fell in love with basketball. It's all because of jiaolian's patient teaching and of course, my most wonderful team mates, the originals. I'll also remember how coach made me fall in love with basketball all over again. Not forgetting my awesome girls.

-

Promos here in 2 weeks' time.

Overwhelmed by how much i've to cover and how much i don't know. Result of not paying attention during lectures and tutorials. Fuck it's like having to learn everything all over.

Feel like just giving up and trying again next year. But i'll never be given the option to do that. I cannot fail, ever. Or my life's over.

I. Can. Never. Make. It.
I'm stupid.

2011-09-06T15:33:00.003+08:00

Back to tnps today with yanxin. We were with mr lye the whole day. So glad to see him after 2 years! :-) Finally stepped into the staffroom after 5 long years, and chatted at lye's desk for awhile. There was also this familiar candle quote...... Anyway we then walked around the school with him and took pics and vids of the chinese drama thing that was going on.

Thanks lye for the drinks & lunch. And yanxin found herself a cute boy boy. WHOOOP and realized we were in the same kindergarden class. I LOVE TNPS, & I MISS BALLING ON THE AWESOME AWESOME COURT.

♥

2011-09-04T16:55:00.000+08:00

“In the human world, we use confinement as a form of punishment, for people who have done wrong in our society, we punish them by confining them and putting them behind bars. But the RWS wild-caught dolphins have done nothing wrong, they have done nothing to harm us, they have done nothing to harm all of us here in Singapore yet we decide to confine them, we decide to take their freedom away and we argue that this in their interest and that they are thriving in captivity.”

From acres' fb

2011-09-01T13:25:00.003+08:00

Back to nas ytd for some alumni event. Caught up with everyone and had our dinner in the school canteen. It was really great to see everyone! :-) Mini party in class today with our CG, and the celebration that we had in hall was great as well.

Happy teachers' day everyone! Esp mr lye (tnps), mrs lim (tnps) and ms foo (mjc)! ♥

2011-08-30T14:15:00.001+08:00

开始互不相识的两人，某天他们开始交集了，然后某天他们各自回到原点，最后永不相见，爱情／友情只不过是从陌生到熟悉，然后从熟悉到冷淡，再回到原点，转了一个大圈，你还是你，我还是我。

2011-08-30T13:43:00.002+08:00

Awesome acres! (y) I was supposed to be there too, for the concert. As in, i was invited and i really wanted to go, but i had something else to attend to so i couldn't make it. Wishing i was there too to support the cause right now!

Anyway, everyone plz support acres and the saddest dolphins campaign!
Bottlenose dolphins shouldn't be bottled up!

http://sg.news.yahoo.com/blogs/singaporescene/1-000-gather-petition-against-rws-dolphin-enclosure-140151278.html

http://www.saddestdolphins.com/thecampaign/thecampaign.html

2011-08-29T20:43:00.000+08:00

Why is my reflection someone i don't know?
Somehow i cannot hide who i am though i've tried.
–Mulan #disneywords

Ignore my previous post. Plz.

2011-08-28T22:42:00.000+08:00

Today, i realized. I had not only lost myself, and lost a great coach. I had unknowingly lost a family, one that i was so proud of. I'm no longer part of the pacts we'd made. No longer, just because of that fucking quarrel.

2011-08-26T15:08:00.003+08:00

We were making tributes for our teachers and were cutting shapes for thank you notes to be written. And i cut crowns which really failed at the first attempt. Then they were there discriminating me again haha like kartrider!

Red > yellow > pink

Serene thought it was nice (cus she aspires to be a princess) and it's like somebody finally see them as crowns and not grass(jingwen) & paw (jess yongling shuling) -_-. LOL YAY SERENE.

That'z all for today bb. Me so happy quite some holiday ahead.

2011-08-26T14:47:00.005+08:00

The day before was xiaobai's birthday. :-)
Our whole family was home for his celebration and my classmates wrote a card for him. Whooop. Happy 2nd birthday xiaobai!

Our school had this support the children's cancer foundation event yesterday and i bought 5 tulips. Be strong little ones, you give me hope. :-)

2011-08-26T06:51:00.003+08:00

I like to post happy stuffs. This explains why i hadn't been blogging often these days......
Anyway, people i've another survey up. Plz help by doing we appreciate your help!

http://www.surveymonkey.com/s/F9KKNRF

2011-08-22T19:53:00.003+08:00

Last tuesday was idiot sis's birthday. Been so busy with work that i haven't had the chance to blog or what. And there's about a month more to promos, i still feel damn unprepared and it's getting worse now cus the subjects and getting more difficult. Urgh

So many celebrations, so much work to catch up with. >:(
But i must jiayou. I wanna promote with the class!

P/s: If you haven't realize, i'd cut my fringe last week! It's been with me for going a year haiii.

2011-08-15T19:01:00.003+08:00
From yujing:
“@jiexinneo wait for that someone who will sing this to you(:”

I won't let go by Rascal flatts

It’s like a storm
That cuts a path
It breaks your will
It feels like that

You think your lost
But your not lost on your own
Your not alone
I will stand by you
I will help you through
When you’ve done all you can do
If you can’t cope
I will dry your eyes
I will fight your fight
I will hold you tight
And I wont let go

It hurts my heart
To see you cry
I know it’s dark
This part of life
Oh it finds us all
And we’re too small
To stop the rain
Oh but when it rains

And I wont let you fall
Don’t be afraid to fall
I’m right here to catch you
I wont let you down
It wont get you down
Your gonna make it
Yea I know you can make it

Which reminded me of you. Still remember how you'd pulled me thru the darkest path of my life, and how you'd always been there for everyone of us. You're such a selfless person, and i don't think there'll be anyone else like you. Thank you.

It's your big day again, time really flies. And it's been a year, how're you?

2011-08-11T07:01:00.000+08:00

Headed to nex last friday to celebrate jess {^(00)^}'s birthday in advance. Wanted to go party world but it was full house! So we walked around aimlessly and finally headed to this restaurant to sit down eat drink talk and PLAY KART RIDER.

And we stayed there for like 3 hours, or more. Haha! After that we met adelin at the rooftop, took photos, jump jump jump and gave jess her presents + cupcake.

Went home after that cus they couldn't stay out too late. Ct took away kfc and we HOMED!

@ jess ct wj hm ky adelin

Today's her birthday so HAPPY 17TH YO!

Anyway, i wasted my holiday again! Like 5 dayz of it and i only chionged my hw ytd night. Gotta chiong in sch again later! Sad life. And i'm gonna buy cake for jess during common lunch leh how to chiong!!! Procrastinate somemore lor wahlau!

2011-08-08T06:58:00.001+08:00
At this point of time, i feel quite SUCKS actually. Well maybe not quite, but very.

Don't know what's wrong with me! I know promos' coming but i still get out of the house every now and then for no reasons. Then even if i'm at home, i still won't study! Or maybe i'll just procrastinate till late night, then anyhow do one piece of work, feel less guilty, and get to sleep. Other than eat and sleep i seem to be doing nothing!

FUCK SIA at this rate i'm gonna fail my promos. This is not o level standard leh jiexin!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Last minute work won't work. How long must i take to convince myself?! If i retain i'll be DEAD.

URGH WHY AM I NOT BORN A MUGGER?

2011-08-07T20:00:00.002+08:00

If i looked out only for myself, i could've let you drown. But i wanted you to succeed.
That's all i have to say, period.

2011-08-06T18:22:00.001+08:00
Hi people, i need your help to answer some questions. If i haven't texted you or anything plz feel free to send in your responses by text/twitter/facebook/email alright!

1. Do you go to far east plaza when you are at orchard?
2. Which level do you most frequent? (Level 1 being the lowest level, the one that sells alot of food & shoes)
3. Which other malls do you go to (in town) if you want to shop?

Thanks for your time! :-)

2011-08-06T14:01:00.000+08:00
Dear past, stop tapping me on the shoulders. I don't wanna look back.

Build bridges instead of walls. Build bridges instead of walls. Build bridges instead of walls. Build bridges instead of walls. Build bridges instead of walls. Build bridges instead of walls. Build bridges instead of walls. Build bridges instead of walls. Build bridges instead of walls. Build bridges instead of walls.